I’m sure I’m not the only one struggling with the ramifications of all the ways the pandemic has turned my life upside down – and I’m one of the lucky ones. I’m healthy, I’m riding this out from the comfort of my own home, and even though I can’t see my friends in real life right now, I have a wonderful support system to help me through this tough time.
Despite all of these blessings, I still feel like the rug was pulled out from under me when everything shut down in March, with no end in sight. Yes, things are starting to reopen, but we won’t be returning to anything resembling what life was like before the pandemic for a very long time.
I don’t handle change well at the best of times, and I know I’m not alone in this, either. Even though my own life has shown me that things always change for the better, even when it doesn’t seem like it when I’m in the middle of upheaval, I still find it hard to keep the faith during times like these.
The full Rumi quote reads
Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead, let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come.
I think I’m going to have to pin this up somewhere where I can see it throughout the day, as a reminder that unless I learn to lean into this changed world and accept that a return to the exact way my old life has been likely won’t be possible, or at least not for a very long time, I’m going to feel anxious and sad and depressed.
It’s important to acknowledge negative emotions, and sometimes, having a meltdown can actually offer some benefits. It’s a release of pent up emotion, and you may feel clearer and lighter afterwards, But it’s also important to not lose hope, even when things seem at their most hopeless.
For me, the way to bring myself out of my darker moments is to focus on all the things I’m grateful for. And of course, spending time with Allegra is always guaranteed to make me feel better. Even just watching her sleep in a sun puddle restores my faith that right now, life is good. And that gives me hope that if things can be good in this present moment, they will get better, one moment at a time.